124 Jonathon Gibson – you who were so much the more Thoughtful of us

Jonathon Gibson – you who were so much the more

Thoughtful of us even in the choosing of the method

Place and time of your suicide – for you took the gun,

Not risking the leaving of your mortal coild

To a vegetative state

Not risking traumatizing a Union Pacific engineer.

But you should have been more thoughtful

Of your mother and your father

Jonathon – it was only money, okay, so, you “went nuts,”

And bought a lot of senseless stuff you didn't need

Even though the purchases made perfect sense at the time.

Oh Jonathon Gibson, how could we have left you

All alone to the demons that haunted your mind

And fed like jackals of your heart & soul?

How could we have failed to instill that simplest

Idea, that Simplest Truth of All,

That you were always, and always will be

A beloved child of a loving Father,

Perfectly formed and born into the world

With a potential for so much, so much good to do.

The lives you could and would have changed and saved,

The prayers you would have answered,

The phone call from the desolate ones you could and

Would have consoled. So much lost potential.

Such a tragedy.

Jonathon Gibson, thank you for showing us,

In this our disgraceful failing

How much we need to talk with our children

To listen to them, to assure them,

That failure comes not from the non-attainment of a goal

But only from the not trying your best,

Only from not giving it your all,

And we have FAILED you (and all the other blessed

Angel children of Barrington too who find hope

Only in the ending of this life, on this planet,

In this place, at this time)

We have failed you all so miserably

That we ought to spend something just short of eternity

In purgatory, so that we would come to know and

Fully understand that HELL is that place

Wherein lies, the complete and total absence of LOVE.

Faith, hope, charity, but the greatest of these is LOVE.

Your love cannot be forgotten.

This we pray

In Jesus Name

AMEN.